The visit to your centre was a gift for me. The time together this weekend was just unbelievably good. It was like being in a place where I met like-minded people and was allowed to be myself and everyone else be themselves for two days, just unexpectedly overwhelming. Thank you all very much, your support was just very fitting and very helpful. Special thanks to Johannes for his open, honest sharing and excellent support during the ceremonies! Dear thanks to Joelly for his profound and so important conversations, they helped me a lot to understand my impressions and experiences from the ceremonies better! Special thanks to Hannah for sharing her experience with her parents (accepting them), which helped me to better understand my situation. And of course Barin Mane, thank you very much for trusting me in the ceremonies, strong guy! The two ceremonies were very intense and deep for me. The second one, however, was definitely the stronger one. My expectation to “understand myself better” (whatever that means) was more than exceeded in both ceremonies. Ayahuasca, above all, showed me why I was really at the centre. It was about my “emotional inner world”, I understand that more and more since I am back home. My issue with my father is a central painful point in my life. In the second ceremony, I was told very clearly that I have to accept on the emotional level, unconditionally. As well described in your “Integration ToolKit”, I have to cut the energetic connection to my father. I understand since Monday evening that there is no other way for me here. He (my father) has to go his own way. The following was my first experience when I arrived home on Monday: I wanted to thank my mum and dad for everything and let them know that no matter what is/was between us, no strings attached, I am very grateful for everything they have done for me and really love them very much as my parents. […] I notice it very much now, as if a side of me that has been hidden for a long time is showing itself, which I have repressed since childhood (probably since I was 10 or 12 years old). It could very well be that the retreat has uncovered this and I am slowly slipping into the new old me. This fits in too well with my childhood/fatherhood theme. Have such a very subtle feeling that this overwhelming weekend was just the beginning. I continue to actively exchange with some of the participants, which helps a lot to better integrate and process the experiences I have had. If life allows me and I get the opportunity, I would be very happy to be your guest in the center again. Eugen Germany